Archive for May, 2008

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On having goals

May 25, 2008

I keep hearing lately how important goal-setting is. Personally, I have decided that this is actually just a bunch of crap made up to sell self-help books. Then again, I could be very, very wrong.

Going with that thought, I have decided to set a goal. And it is this:

I want to race Indy cars.

What do y’all think? 😉 I think I’d be a kick-ass race car driver. Of course, there’s always the possibility that I might kill myself.

If you don’t hear from me for a while, it’s because I’ve gone off to race car driving school. Wish me luck!

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Wishful thinking

May 23, 2008

Heads Carolina. Tails California.

Damn those high gas prices!!

It’s probably better this way, though. I don’t think Bear’s a big fan of the car.

The thought of a roadtrip sounds tremendous right about now, though, folks. I’ll tell you that for nothing.

Happy Holiday Weekend! Be safe, everyone.

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My date for the weekend

May 22, 2008

Meet Bear. I’m very grateful for my date. It beats the hell out of being alone. I’ve decided I’m not very good at being alone, though there are certainly worse things in life. Bear is already making it better. Bless you, Bear.

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Snippets

May 21, 2008

Me: So are you going to tone down your temper and not be so critical?

Him: No, probably not. Are you going to be less wild and not be running off all the time?

Me: No.

Him: Huh.

So there you have it.

*scratches head*

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Hump Day

May 21, 2008

I don’t think I’ve ever participated in a Wordless Wednesday, and I’m obviously still not because these are words you’re reading, BUT, I had this image in my head today and thought that it might help to get it out in this place.

Yes, sometimes you’re the windshield, and sometimes you’re the bug. Thank you, Mary Chapin Carpenter, for these profound words and the reminder that life, hopefully all life, is cyclical.

And to anyone I have ever hurt or offended with my windshield tendencies, I offer my deepest and most heart-felt apologies. What the world needs now is love, sweet love, a few less windshields and a lot more kindness.

Here’s a hug to anyone who’s ever felt like the bug and not had someone there to hug you while you were going through it.

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Thought for the day

May 20, 2008

“The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking
new landscapes, but in having new eyes.”

Marcel Proust

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Following up

May 19, 2008

Yes, folks. I have been going through some stuff. Going through some stuff, I have.

I know that I’m feeling my way through it, but it’s a process, isn’t it?

And it’s so tempting to fall into defensive traps, thoughts, actions and words that separate us from each other instead of drawing us close. I find myself fighting that almost daily now, disillusioned by life and love, wondering what’s next, trying my best to learn, finally, how to live in the moment, each and every blessed one of them.

I catch myself trying to make sense of relationships and wanting to will myself to keep an open heart in the midst of a world that’s filled with pain, some of it intentional, most of it not. Openheartedness is so much better, don’t you think?

I realized, though, that Monday’s posts made little to no sense in the context of a public blog that only shares 1/100th of the story. There is so much more — so much more.

Because I’m one of those who cringes to think that the folks at work are reading her life, and because I’m not foolish enough to think that my daughter may not one day grow up and find this damned thing, I try to be sagacious in what I share and what I don’t.

I fear, however, that it’s led to a relatively boring blog — the top 1% of my life that I’m willing to share publicly, especially since these months have been the best and worst of times for me.

The last six months have brought an extraordinary amount of change. And I realize that I’ve hid behind buttons with cute sayings and short snippets about the gopher who longed to make his home under my grass as a way of not coming out and saying what I was going through — for hundreds of reasons, thousands perhaps. (Okay, a bit of an exaggeration. I do that. I’m an exaggerator. What kind of storyteller would I be if I didn’t allow myself a Beowulf exaggeration every now and then?)

But I realize that it all must seem rather disjointed for anyone who may actually be trying to follow along. I apologize for that. I know you understand.